Well, as none of you know, I've been hit pretty hard...(Not literally) hit...in the heart if you will. Please don't ask who, I won't tell. But, this is just a post to say, if you were expecting me to do something sometime soon, I wouldn't count on it...the only real way...is..well, if you are reading this (You know who you are) I really want you back...I couldn't do anything today, I woke up late...I didn't do anything in school...I didn't even eat...and well...even though our relationship was way far away, thinking of you is what kept me going, day by day, just knowing, that you'll be there when I get home....to comfort me... And well, you know I'd do anything in my power to make you happy...and I try...I try...(Warning, the next part may make you think less of me, if you are a quite skeptical person, 1. Why the hell are you my frined, let alone reading this, and two, please go somewhere else.) I try...for you, because, well...you really are the first woman to say "I love you" to me, without it being a lie, or a cruel joke...so...I just...want you back. Now, I know thats never gonna happen, and I'm glad you've moved on...well, thats the thing...I'm still gonna need some time, because, not being your boyfriend has really killed me inside...I first thought of it as a fun way to pass the time until Adam got on. But...it grew to be much more then that...Now...if I try to live without you...its going to be hard. So...I didn't write this to make you feel bad, or for you to take me back, (Feel free to though, I'm really sad) I wrote it, to let you, and everyone know, that I'm going to need some time...to get used to life without you...I truely love you with mind, heart and soul...

-Love Joseph.